It’s not what you think

I think he nailed it on the GenX angst here.
Chemical or not, it’s really frustrating to be part of the generation that works their asses off but can never catch a break. I’m talking breaking even here, not even “winning” by a long shot. Winning is a fairy tale, it’s for other people. Honestly I was grunge before there was grunge. I my South St. Louis “hoosier” neighborhood, we were all grunge by default. Small h on hoosier because South St. Louis hoosiers are not the same as Indiana Hoosiers. My sister and I were on the music scene there wearing our flannel shirts and faded jeans while listening to and making music that was still decidedly punk but heading somewhere else that we could only imagine but knew when it finally exploded onto the charts. We were both there (with a lot of others) during the bridge years between Punk and Grunge. We experienced all the depression, cynicism, anger, and anxiety that went with it to. I know Angie has fought depression while I’ve been more low key about it. I’m the one that always seemed sunny and cheerful but like most GenXers I’ve had the same battles. Like other GenXers, I prefer to be left alone to. I might have partied like a fiend with the rest of them but when the party was over I was like the rest yelling, “Get the hell out of here!” or “Go home!”
The fact is, GenX should be grown up by now, and most outwardly are. We shouldn’t be wrestling with this stuff still but I have a feeling that GenX will always wrestle with these things. I suspect it’s just who we are.

The First Ten Words by Rich Larson

Chris Cornell, 1964-2017

Chris Cornell died early Thursday morning. His band Soundgarden played a show on Wednesday night at the Fox Theater in Detroit. Two hours after the show ended, he was gone.

For two days, I’ve been working on a piece to pay tribute to him, and it’s been a struggle. Usually when I have a problem like this it’s because I’m staring at a blank screen trying to figure out what I want to say. That’s not the problem this time. The problem is I have way too much to say.

I’m not going to sit here and claim to have been a huge fan of Soundgarden. I didn’t dislike them, I just had to take them in small doses. I was a fan of Cornell. I love “Seasons,” the solo song he had on Cameron Crowe’s movie, Singles. It’s a droning acoustic song about isolation and the…

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A Time to Shake the Dust From your Feet

People do such horrible deeds to each other over a little bit of money or mere material possessions. They abandon all honor and ethics. In my family they will even throw first degree relations to the street without any notice. They will break sacred trusts. Some people in my family completely lack ethics, twist the truth to suit their ends, The worst of them is my mom, who behind the scenes instigates such horrors for her own amusement, greed, jealousy, and sheer spite.

Under the encouragement of our mom, my sister is being kicked out of our family home by a young man that she brought into this world.  I suppose our mom figures she can get ahold of some of the money and it will also satisfy a deep vendetta she had against our father’s family due to nothing other than her evil heart. His motive was laid bare in a google search yesterday. He is kicking his birth mother out of her family home (5 generations) in order to buy a Corvette. I’m just asking every one to pray for my sweet sister, Angela Clark that she finds a new home in quick order that will be hers for as long as she wants it and no one can take from her. Pray that she has enough time to move all our generations of things.

She’s just devastated by this turn of events. She brought him into this world at great personal sacrifice and always watched him from nearby like a benevolent god mother. Recently Angie’s gift of life was turned into a smear of “whore” against her under our mom’s influence of him. She trusted him and now he violated the terms of the estate (which was misrepresented and mishandled, possibly in an illegal fashion it turns out) with no real recourse. She’s heart broken that she is losing her home and her only child treated her this way.

I have to say, I am so disappointed in my mom. I know she’s a witch but this takes the cake. She goes and sits in her Church of Christ every Sunday, all self righteous and in full Bible lawyer mode, nit picking scripture to rationalize her way to heaven. She hasn’t fooled me and she hasn’t fooled God, even though she really believes she has. Her heart is hard and she lacks love and desperately needs prayers. As for me, I’ve been through this for decades, over and over again, and can’t take her toxic, narcissistic personality (also borderline pd) any more. At this point I’ve had enough. I will never speak to her again as long as I live. I never want to see her again either. Years of abuse from her have taken their toll. I’m done now and need to move on with my life with people who deserve my time, attention, and affection.

Honoring Those That Came Before

Today seems to be a good day to remember and honor my Great Grandma Elizabeth Schmidt. Today I found hope and found some peace in what happened to her. Today I saw that women in America and all around the world are a sisterhood.


“Those who have long enjoyed such privileges as we enjoy forget in time that men have died to win them.“ – Franklin D. Roosevelt”
We usually think of veterans when we think of the quote above. However, there are others who have died for these “privileges” (rights?) some of us enjoy.

Here is a picture of an actual suffragist from back in the day. She had a teaching certification from Cornell and worked hard supporting her family. She was married and had a loving supportive husband. One of the things he supported was that she was a working mom. btw, He was a rancher.

At some point she got this crazy notion that she should be allowed to vote and have full civil rights. So she went to a big city to march (I think it was Chicago) and was arrested. After she was arrested she was imprisoned along with many other women who marched with her. They went on a hunger strike and the wardens decided to force feed them.

They had this horrible contraption that really was more like a torture device. It involved forcing the women’s jaws open with a mechanism akin to a trap device. It would spring open with great force and broke many of these ladies jaws in the process.

The lady in the picture wasn’t that fortunate. The next step was to insert a feeding tube. Once again, very little attention to the woman’s wellbeing was considered. So, they punctured her esophagus with that tube. She developed an infection that proved fatal and was sent home to die. Also, she couldn’t eat either and starvation may have contributed to her death as well. She died about six months before the Nineteenth Amendment was ratified.

My grandma was 12 years old when she lost her mother and mourned her all the rest of her days. She made sure I knew how my great grandma died.

So, pardon me if I find it completely unacceptable to treat women as second class citizens (sub-humans really) in civil society (outside of church) for supposed religious reasons. American women paid for these rights with their very lives. These rights were not given to them by some chauvinist men in a fit of benevolence either. Our women paid for these rights with their blood. The thing about basic human rights is that they are not earned or granted, they are inherent. So sadly, what happened to her and others should never have happened, but its always been this way and the same for all groups seeking full rights and inclusion.


I’m not claiming to be an expert here, hardly. I’m just now in my life finding a space where I can make a start of forgiving. I learned how freeing it is. I found some peace and happiness for the first time in my life… In that process I learned that there are people that use conflict to feed on the energy of others. Sadly, some know they do it and can’t handle a relationship without strife. The other party’s happiness is their demise. Other people don’t realize it but they can never forgive and they can’t let go. Maybe in time they will but it confuses them in the meantime to.

Here are some of my thoughts on forgiveness…

You don’t forgive for them, you forgive for you. You forgive to take the burden off your heart, it has nothing to do with them. Forgiveness is letting go. You let go of your hurt, anger, and bitterness.

Remember, it is in fact your hurt, pain, and anger; not theirs. Forgiveness gives you space to move on with your life. It doesn’t mean letting someone treat you badly if you do keep the relationship.

What it does mean if you keep the relationship is that you give that person a place they can move forward from and heal from. You give them the ability to move past your anger, hurt, and bitterness to. You let them move on in their relationship with you.

You don’t hold some slight against them forever because they become frozen there and can’t move forward and grow. The entire relationship becomes stunted because no matter what they do, they can’t be good enough in your eyes ever again.
Without forgiveness from you nothing they ever do will be good enough.

Ultimately the person you are really stunting is yourself. If you block out the sun so that other people around you can’t grow, you won’t grow either. If the sun won’t shine on them, it won’t shine on you.

Its not fair to hold the past against someone so they are always bending over backwards to please you when they have no idea where it went wrong or that you are even holding something against them. People that subject other people to that sort of torture are jackasses. Only a selfish pig would do that to someone else to their own advantage because they owe them.

What is important is that you talk to them about the hurt, no matter how long ago it happened. Maybe they really have no idea they hurt you that way and you’ll open their eyes. Maybe you’ll help them to become more considerate people. Then again, maybe they’ll decide you are a petty jerk and want nothing more to do with you.

So first really think about your part in the hurt first. Did you have unreasonable expectations such as burdensome moral rules you imposed upon them? In the meantime maybe they just think you are a self absorbed jerk and maybe you are, nursing a slight you have no business nursing. They have no way of knowing unless you tell them.

Remember, when they know you free them to. Maybe that is why its your shady little secret.


My Thoughts on Paid Maternity Leave in the U.S.

This Mother’s Day morning I awoke to a very angry “friend” on facebook berating me for supporting paid maternity leave in the U.S. Whilst trying to wish significant others Happy Mother’s Day she piled on her “opinions” and attacks on the mater. I guess she must have thought she won the debate as only those with trailer park debate skills tend to think they won such debates. After I finally gave an answer she unfriended me rather than continue the conversation she started.

I think the need for paid parental leave here in the U.S. needs to be addressed as we are only one of two countries that doesn’t offer it. Understand that for her this was an issue that centered on women’s reproductive and life choices. She had the nerve to even contend that men of reproductive age would face discrimination with such policies in place. The fact is that men have traditionally (and overwhelmingly) always received a “bread winner” wage. White, male, head of households were typically paid substantially more than single men and women in general. It’s the crux of patriarchy and demonstrated stunning ignorance on her part to dare suggest such discrimination against “family men” would happen. Frankly, it was disingenuous on her part.

So here is my response to this anti-Mother’s Day nonsense:

Does society exist merely to facilitate businesses? Aren’t women and children part of we the people to? Why should the life propagating aspects of humanity be unpaid work, or worse considered a burden? Similar to when health insurance rates were adjusted to be the same for women as men because all of society (and humanity actually) benefits from women’s reproductive aspects, paid maternity leave also benefits all the rest of society, including businesses. Furthermore, this practice is used to justify paying women less than men. Why should men get a pass on family responsibilites and child rearing? Why are we not demanding men be more rounded and stop sucking off the other gender by insisting women sacrifice their careers over men. BTW: I worked as a cleaning lady when my children were small. (Only because she specifically signaled out that occupation as one unworthy of paid maternity leave).

We live in what is called a society. We pay for all sorts of infrastructure and services that we will personally never use because it behooves us to. We educate other people’s children whether we will ever know them or not as well because living with ignorant people is miserable.

The compensation would be close to the typical male wage all the time and gets treated as if it would be too much to ask for females to be compensated for a few months of their working lives. I mean its a little more but wouldn’t even equal a year of a working woman’s lifetime’s work for most of us. Furthermore, its doubtful employers would screen young male applicants to see if they are potential new dads that might also take advantage of paid paternity leave policies, so It sounds like a cop out to me. Furthermore, companies that fire pregnant women tend to get sued, fined, and have to pay damages for their illegal behavior.

You see, the Civil rights Act of 1964 was not promulgated to create a bunch of new laws and regulations for businesses as is often portrayed by Libertarians and Tea Partiers. It was made to ensure that constitutional rights were respected in regards to the 14th Amendment per the Commerce Clause.

“Subsequent legislation expanded the role of the EEOC. Today, according to the U. S. Government Manual of 1998-99, the EEOC enforces laws that prohibit discrimination based on race, color, religion, sex, national origin, disability, or age in hiring, promoting, firing, setting wages, testing, training, apprenticeship, and all other terms and conditions of employment. Race, color, sex, creed, and age are now protected classes.”

Unless there is a specific health concern regarding hiring fertile women with plans to reproduce while employed in a particular position (i.e. work related exposure to toxic or radio active chemicals), it is illegal to discriminate against women of child bearing age in hiring or promotion. It is also illegal to discriminate against already pregnant women in hiring or promotion.

All the worn out welfare reform terminolgy and “choices” rhetoric that enabled America to declare war on its working mothers back during the 1990s ignored that women of child bearing age tend to be the segmant of the population that gets pregnant. It is therefore a matter of status to be fertile and/or pregnant person (See Roe v. Wade) and would be illegal then to discriminate against such people in hiring or promotion except in the case where its a bonafide job requirement or could endanger her or unborn child’s health.

Although, I tend to agree that most women consider it responsible to have fewer children if they can, women who get pregnant (with or without taking precautions) should not be treated as if they are obligated to terminate pregnancies for purposes of job or work eligibility. Parental status should not be a basis for hiring or promotion either.






On being Divided

Remember, we are being continuously divided while the federal government consolidates power at the expense of us all. If you are not able to see or understand that then you need to open some books and start reading. Don’t fall for the hype, the memes, the us or them rhetoric, the wedge issues separating us from each other and our god given place in the whole scheme of things. If some communities cannot handle the responsibility that comes with these rights then thats their problem. They have no right to take those rights from the rest of us. Nor does any one have the right to legislate with bogus Executive Orders in defiance of the people. Of course, the courts will check those to. 😉

Whatever change is needed, and it is, needs to go through the proper channels and not some dictatorial tool (double entendre intended). We all need to demand common sense regulations that help ensure community safety without infringing of law abiding citizen’s rights through the legislature because that is the proper, democratic channel for such matters.

That doesn’t mean there isn’t a place for our interests and the issues we hold dear. After all, our differences also make us stronger. Just don’t let those differences weaken our union and make us all weaker and easily exploited. Most importantly, don’t look jealously upon others and fill our hearts with resentment. Those are the seeds dictators and evil men exploit to their own ends, ends that lead to death and destruction, world war and genocide.

Learn to love eachother, respect eachother, and stay strong together. Easier said than done, I know.

On the Federalization of Power and the Loss of our Constitutional Rights

Your constitutional rights are being systematically eroded. It doesn’t matter what race, religion, gender, sexual orientation, sex you are, etc. These are all of our constitutional protections I’m talking about here. In theory, the guarantees in the Bill of Rights protects each and everyone of us from governmental abuses. Sadly, this isn’t the case so much any more due to these aforementioned erosions which have occured due to numerous poorly considered court rulings that favor the government too heavily at the detriment to the citizenry. The Supreme Court has gone so far nowadays (starting with the ruling upholding Obamacare) as to get arrogant and merely declare their pronouncements as law merely on their say so without any legal reasoning underpinning their dictates beyond Marbury v. Madison.

So without further ado here I go on the latest:
This situation has been an egregious violation of double jeopardy. Remember, If they can do this to these wackos, they can do it to anyone.

What spurred the armed occupation of a federal wildlife refuge in southeast Oregon…?tid=sm_fb
By Wesley Lowery / The Washington Post

The two men have previously served prison time for the crimes, but earlier this year a federal appeals court concluded that their initial sentences had been too short — arson on federal property carries a mandatory minimum sentence of five years — and ordered the men back to prison.”

It doesn’t matter the sentence was less than the bare minimum. If even one day is served on any given sentence, the sentence cannot be added to just because the judge didn’t like it without invoking double jeopardy. Its very simple. None of the other stuff is relevant. Multiple punishments cannot be dealt after a single day of time is served on the original sentence. The fact extra time was added after they served time means that double jeopardy definitely applies here.

Multiple punishments
The defendant may not be punished twice for the same offense. In certain circumstances, however, a sentence may be increased. It has been held that sentences do not have the same “finality” as acquittals, and may therefore be reviewed by the courts. Sentence increases may not, however, be made once the defendant has already begun serving his term of imprisonment.

Double jeopardy is a multi type definition with about 4 different circumstances that can constitute double jeopardy.…nstitution

The Double Jeopardy Clause of the Fifth Amendment to the United States Constitution provides: “[N]or shall any person be subject for the same offence to be twice put in jeopardy of life or limb . . . .” The four essential protections included are prohibitions against,
for the same offense
retrial after an acquittal
retrial after a conviction
retrial after certain mistrials
multiple punishment

Jeopardy attaches in jury trial when the jury is empaneled and sworn in, in a bench trial when the court begins to hear evidence after the first witness is sworn in, or when a court accepts a defendant’s plea unconditionally. Jeopardy does not attach in a retrial of a conviction that was reversed on appeal on procedural grounds (as opposed to evidentiary insufficiency grounds), in a retrial for which “manifest necessity” has been shown following a mistrial, and in the seating of another grand jury if the prior one refuses to return an indictment.”

Note, these men’s conviction was not overturned and they were not being subjected to a new trial, which would have excluded double jeopardy from applying. Instead, Prosecutors appealed what they considered too light of a sentence after the men started serving their time. In fact, the men had been released from jail when the new sentence was pronounced. Certainty of sentencing is also a part of fundamental fairness doctrine as well. Without it people could continuously be dragged back to jail for the rest of their lives over one conviction and never allowed the security of paying their price for their crimes in full.

Obviously that particular federal court disagrees with me and the Supreme Court failed to grant certiorari at this time. Shame on the courts for disavowing basic constitutional rights of the people. Laws are not supposed to violate the constitution and are supposed to comport with it. Sadly, the erosion of our basic rights has been ongoing for decades. No wonder people are finally getting upset out there. The courts have clearly forgot they don’t operate in a vacuum and will be corrected before too long, if my guess is right.